Well, considering the startling number of times I have begun and subsequently epically failed at maintaining a blog, the natural thing for me to do is start another one. Hopefully I do a little better this time.

Nothing to rant and rave about today, thank God. It was actually a pretty good day. Got several amazing pending pieces of news from Joel and I couldn't be any more proud of him.

Sometimes I sit back and think about what my life was like before I met him and therefore before I joined the amazing ranks of the silent sisterhood. I was miserable and cynical and losing faith in just about everything. Don't be mistaken, I'm still cynical, but now it mostly just tends to be for comedic purposes... Oh, and as a defense mechanism.

This life is hard. Sometimes it kills me to see my friends happily living their everyday lives with their boyfriend or girlfriend. Seeing each other regularly, going on dates, hugs and kisses here and there -- and I love my friends dearly, but some days it makes me want to scream and stomp my feet because I miss him so badly. But I don't begrudge him at all. I could never resent his decision to join or stay in the Marines even though it means we don't get to see each other as often as we'd like. He is doing something that is bigger than me, bigger than us, and I'm proud to stand beside him and support him as he protects our country.

I could talk myself in circles all day long about this. The bottom line is that I love him. I will support him until the day he decides he doesn't want me to anymore. And someday we will be together. It won't be easy, but nothing worth having ever is.